Whatever!!

I decided to just not give a damn about all that's been going on - I got myself into this mess, yes, but I'll get out of it eventually. Past is past, and future is future, and right now I'm gonna focus on the present. And that is having an AWESOME year in the US!!!!!! And in 18 days I'll be on my way!!!!!!! *tingles in my tummy*

I was loosing hope and faith for a while, but now that I've gotten my tickets worked out, and the VISA and all, I am feeling that the "power" is mine again, and I truly feel this year will make a difference. My teacher called me today talking about my assignement that went to hell, giving advice for my next move on it, and he really have faith in me too, which means a lot to me. He is a real good ............. and if someone is to know what I can do, then he is the one! ;)
Anyway, I know I have more on board than I go for, so it's just a matter of having the right motivation, and going abroad is nnot a bad idea at all!! So now I'm sitting here trying to think of what and who I want to be - noone knows me there, so I can be whoever I want to, it's just a matter of having the courage to live it out.

I even had this crazy idea of going all the way with bying a new wardrobe and all, hihi.... You know, should I go for the strict but sexy/naughty officelady/secetary, or the sporty annoying always happy person, or the trendy araogant type, hihihihi..... But.... don't think I'll be able to pull that off both moneywise nor personalitywise, and besides, it's not really me, I want to be me, just a better me ;)

Talking about a better me - I really don't wanna post halfnaked pics of me here, but I almost feel tempted because since I started working out there has been some NICE changes, hehe. But the best part is that I can feel the change inside as well. My body is SO much more happy this way! :D Besides, it gives great selfconfidence being able to be this disciplined and to know that you, and only yourself has made this happen! So I feel good! :D

Well, either way I'm looking forward to going, and WOW is it gonna be a wild ride!!! Now that I'm going abroad, I'll try to keep this place a bit more updatet, so I don't have to mail everyone all the time, hihi. :P